Brian's Little Blog

Twas the night before my wedding and all through Guam, everyone was stirring including my mom. Hey that rhymes. Probably the only smile to come to my face today that wasn't induced by Nelie. So many last minute things. A list that start out at 3 items to do became 15. And the worst part it seems that no one was really willing to step to help us. Todd and Leah asked, Matt and Joy did as well, though Matt and Joy were jet lagged while Todd and Leah had really planned out their whole day. I wish our bridal party and our families helped more with everything today. Maybe they didn't know what needed to be done, or maybe we didn't tell them what to do. I just know that it's 12:48am on the day of my wedding and Nelie is still working on things. Maybe this is the Filipino way. Now I must say that Rene and Rodney have been helping a ton. I will thank them again and again for all that they have done. My only wish was for people to remember why they came here to Guam. This wasn't a vacation. This was to be with Nelie and I to share OUR day. I'm selfish. I'm rude. I'm inconsiderate. I know that I am these things, but I am only these things for the first time in my life. Because it's mine and Nelie's once in a lifetime day.

Nelie .... Later today I will marry you. I will share your happiness and sorrows. Your hopes and your dreams. Your mistakes and your failures. I will watch you age ( gracefully of course ). I will hold you every morning and whisper 'Good-night my love' into your ear every night. I will father your children and we will provide a home to raise them. I will love you each and every day, though I might not like you :-) I promise to be true to you. I promise to cook for you. I promise to make you laugh. I promise to make you think. I promise to give you cute little kisses. I promise to share my deepest fears. This is because I love you will all my heart, mind and soul
Lominewa

So much has happened since I last wrote my blog. Todd and Leah, Matt and Joy, our rehearsal, our dinner, going clubbing, getting our marriage license, all of the edible undies and lingerie, food glore!, and out last fight as a non-married couple. I can finally call Mrs. Cahinhinan ... Mom. I can't wait to marry her. Just remember to bow! eheheh

What a relief. My parents arrived safe and sound last night ( Tuesday Night ). Their flight was uneventful but of course long. Only Todd and Joy to go. Can't wait for everyone to be here. I wonder how my parents and Nelie's parents will get a long. So far everything seems to be okay. After my parents settled in, Jason and Craig took me out for some fun. Let's just say the clubs here are a little bit different than in the states. And there is always Friday for Todd, Matt, Roel, and Rodney... hehehe

Sorry for the delay in posting. Days have been flying by and my parents are almost ready to arrive. They should be here in 2 hours. I can't wait. Nelie's Tita from Australia arrived early this morning (Tuesday Morning) and of course Nelie's Mom put them right to work ;-). That's good though because it gives time for Nelie and I to do some of the things that we haven't had time to do. Oh and Grace took Nelie out last night to do something fun. It wasn't much but I think she had a good time. I just love her smile.

As the temperature rises so does the stress levels. I feel bad because with Jason here now, I have been hanging out with him and Roel, while Nelie continues to work at the house. I think she needs to get out of the house for a little while so that she doesn't explode. Hopefully Rene will take her out to relax just for a bit tomorrow. But we're done with the wedding favors! On to the centerpieces and wedding shower gifts!

This is going to be a quick post today since I didn't get to do one
last night, and we're going to church soon. Oh the ups and downs
of a wedding. The highs ( Jason coming in yesterday -- went out to tour
Tuman at 2am with him ) , and the lows ( Michelle, Nelie's cousin,
won't be able to make it to the wedding because of work ). But in
the end things work out because we have our love for each other.
Lominewa ... Nel. Lominewa

Finally a relaxing day. All we did was have some cake, meet the priest, and sat through floral meetings ( THAT was fun...) and ribbons, ribbons, and more ribbons. There is so much work to do for the favors,it's amazing. And there are 390 guest! Aye NAKO!

And, the stress is finally getting to everyone. People are getting snappy. But we still have a week to go!!! Maybe we can relax with a trip to the beach or maybe a club or spa???

What a day. What a day. What a day. Today was Rene's surprise party, but before we could have it oh the work that we did. The apt. was no where near ready. It had so much cleaning, rearranging, and everything else to be done to it first. I don't know how we pulled it all together but at 7:30 when Rene walked in, she was completely surprised. It made it all worth it. Now we can focus solely on the wedding. And there is a lot of things to be done there as well. But hey, at least the apt is clean ;-)

What a wonderful day. Besides painting the apartmet and helping Nelie's father with building a clothes line, Nelie and I took Jena and Christian to the beach and Chamuro Village. I think everyone thought of us as one happy family. Heck I wouldn't mind. I loved that feeling. I can't wait to start a family with Nelie. I hope we will be able to. You never know what can happen. I was also thinking today about how long we've been engaged. Almost 3 years! Since I first asked on New Year's Eve 2001/2002 to asking her parents permissions to finally getting it right at PSU to everything involved with the wedding planning. Wow! We have been through it all and more that only Nelie and I know about. Our love is so strong. One look from her and my world smiles ...

I think it finally hit me that Nelie and I are getting married. We went to visit the reception hall (it's incredible) after a nice Italian dinner today. I was looking around and I was imaging everyone there. I got goosebumps. The best thing is that I am marring my perfect match, my soulmate. I realize that she is my center, my balance. It's not that she controls me or that I am froozen without her there, but when she is not with me something is missing.

Still working today. Cleaned up the apt for Rene's surprised party. Got to use a high power water -washer today. I can't wait to relax with Nelie in my arms and no cares in my head. One day ... soon

Another day closes on the shores of the beautiful island of Guam. Oh what a day. Spent most of tying ribbons around our name tags for the wedding with trips to find a baker for the cake and to see Nelie's bridesmaid Grace. That was a fun dinner ... once we found the place! Guam is such a small island, how could we get lost???? Oh the best news of the day came when we found out that Jason will be coming! That made Nelie's day. I can feel the stress/tension in her and I'm in another building from her. One last thing, Nelie's father finally addressed me. I'm 'Hey you, Come here." He wanted to offer me some food. :-) Well, it's a start...

It's Monday morning Guam time ( Sunday evening Chicago Time )....Well I finally got wireless working and some time to write. The first couple of days have been eventful already. Obviously Nelie and I made it to Guam without any major problems, except for me getting yelled at in Hong Kong and in Guam's airports for video tape. Man, everyone is very uptight about terroisms these day. I can't even video tape Nelie without getting a warning. Other than that,we arrived. It's nice seeing Nelie with her parents again. I can see where she gets most of her personality from. We've been working since we've gotten here. No time to explore just yet. When everyone else comes we will get a chance. No here's the rub. Jason doesn't look like he will be coming anymore. Nelie came to my room last night upset because Cuya Rodney can't make it to Chicago and bring him back because all of the flights are booked. Because of this, it doesn't look like he will come. This upsets me and makes me sad because I really wanted him to be a part of the wedding. I know that we didn't give him much but Nelie and I did get him and Christian some financial help to buy tickets. With Rodney helping Chrisitan fly here and with Jason not coming..... I wonder where that money went.....

Okay so it's been a while for my personal online journal. Not much of a journal.. huh. Well tomorrow I am off to Guam to get married to my love. We're flying from Chicago to Guam. I've never been so nervous, excited, anxious, and happy before. It's a weird combination to say the least. I'll hopely post a couple lines each night while I'm in Guam to preserve into the Ether of the Internet my feelings as my wedding approaches...